General update

I started radiation yesterday, and there is not really much to say about that except my schedule, a little bit about the women there, and a pathetic story. I will be having the treatment on Monday through Friday for the next six weeks. I've already met some women who are waiting with me. It doesn't matter which stage of cancer we are at, just that we are all in it together. It's an odd kind of camaraderie, but I feel honored to be welcomed into it because I consider all the women waiting there to be very strong and courageous.

Yesterday, when the technicians were positioning me on the table, I was lying there with my arms up over my head and my right breast exposed. I told the technicians that I felt like a Playboy model. They didn't respond, not even a snicker. Feeling silly, I said "do you get comments like that all the time?" and one of them said "Actually, no" and that made me feel sillier.

When I got back to work yesterday, there was an e-newsletter waiting for me from SARK, the inspirational artist I told you about in an earlier blog (from March). She said that she will be offering an online course on transformation. I am looking at this year as a time of spiritual transformation for me, which is my main reason for writing this blog, and so I signed up for her course with great enthusiasm. What follows is a little bit of information about her course:

"In this 30-day interactive, multimedia journey, you'll be working (and playing!) on healing and transforming 15 areas of your life, including:

• Family
• Intimacy
• Friendships
• Self Love
• Money
• Loneliness
• Body Image
• Food Relationships
• Illness
• Aging
• Time
• Moods
• Ego
• Work
• Creativity"

This course is just what I've been looking for to conquer my depression/loneliness and to make my life more fulfilling, as I haven't felt inspired to conduct any heavy self-help or spiritual reading. The information and format of this course really attracted me. I honestly believe that the course came to me through Divine Intervention with the praying I had done the day before to receive answers to the question of why I don't believe it when people say nice things about me. In addition, I told the Post Road Art Center, the group that rejected my artwork and made me feel unwelcome in their community, to take me off of their mailing list. I chose to close that door, and the next day, a new, more inviting, door opened up in front of me.