Hi!
I've started writing this blog in an effort to understand unconventional thoughts I've been having about my recent cancer diagnosis. I believe that my thoughts might be related to depression and it is at this point that I have chosen to begin my exploration.
My story begins on February 2nd, 2009 when I had a routine mammogram. The next day I was called back for more views and an ultrasound. At that appointment I was referred to a surgeon who suggested that the suspicious-looking solid mass on my right breast be removed. On February 19th I had a surgical biopsy and on February 25th I received my cancer diagnosis. While I was waiting for the results to return from the pathologist I found myself hoping that the surgeon would tell me that the results were positive.
My thoughts seemed more than a little strange to me and so I decided to create a blog and explore the reasons why I would want to have cancer. I welcome discussion on this topic, and maybe through this medium we can discover together whether these thoughts are more common than people would care to admit.
Thank you and I hope you enjoy reading my blog entries.
"And when I emerge on the other side of this battle I hope that I will find the world a happier place to live, because if I can make myself a true lifelong friend I know I will never be alone, and that may ease the depression too."
ReplyDeleteHi Lori. I am one of the AANE gals. The words you wrote above are truly at the core of the healing work that you are doing to find happiness in life. The deep inner work, exposing of childhood wounds, analysis of past and current relationship patterns, with or without a therapist will ultimately bring you peace. It is hard and time consuming work, I know, and it can be very painful. You are facing the wake up call of cancer with strength and this same courage will be needed to face your own inner wounds and childhood patterns. The process to find happiness I venture to say will take longer than battling the stage 1 cancer but never give up. You will find happiness and healing of your depression too. Just remember your own words above. I wish you the best and much love.
Thank you, Francie. I will remember these words. I am hoping that this blog and getting to my inner core through my artwork will help heal the depression. Thank you for your encouragement, and welcome!!
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